Light Children,

The last two months have seen me return to the center of my universe, or at least trying to. When I was a kid, I used to meditate morning and night whil saying my prayers. Im Sikh, so my prayers were these 15-20 minute recitations about how so many people sing about whatever God is but they can never know the concept no matter how many rituals they perform, shirnes they build, allegories they write…etc. I used to sit there crossed-legged and imagine that God was this bright light right under my sternum. I thought this light would radiate through my bones and heal me if I focused on it veraciously enough. I don’t believe in a God in the clouds, or an intervening hand that works by request…but I do believe we can tap this loving energy inside ourelves…Like a chocolate hadouken coming right from my heart!

Anyway, I needed some of this energy recently with shit in my spine….RE: My last post…I don’t have piriformis syndrome, it actualy WAS a hernia. I dodged surgery by a hair. a few weeks ago. But, im on the mend. Coupled with the recnt-break up with my lover, this shit has been my Mount Everest….

My spirits are mad High. Summer is right around the corner, and my boy Karma had a lickle hernia of his own, popping a sick little disc, so to speak…hehehe. It’s called Karmapolitan. The lyrics are on point, and the beat choice is mad choice. Im talking everything from the drum line form Back To Life by Soul II Soul, to Renee by Lost Boyz…Definitely for the summer and the ride.

Im currently on this little wonder pill called Lyrica, a nerve anti-inflammatory. It’s supposed to help epileptics stop seizing. All I can say, is that My pain is not so constant and my balls don’t hurt as much. A Spinal hernia is no fun. Lyrica takes about 10 days to start working. Most people stop taking it after the first 2 days cause they don’t feel any effects immediatley…but if you can hold it, the benefits are mad sweet.

About Karma…he has this joint I remixed…peep it. Sounds excellent in a car…

Ill edit this post with a link to karma’s site and a link to my remix…

Im not one to self diagnose without consulting a doctor, but I hurt something in my lower back 3 weeks ago which has left me in bed for since. This experience has proved to me FURTHER, that doctors in Quebec are hit and miss when it comes to doing their job. What is with the attitdue first of all? You chose that job, now do it, and smile.

The sciatic nerve is the largest nerve in the body, and splits into 5 strands that run from your lower back, to the tips of your toes. Sometimes, the sciatic nerve runs through the Piriformis muscle….if this muscle gets damaged (like when running), it can squeeze the hell out of your sciatic nerves, giving you a gorups of symptoms that fall under the name Sciatica…..which is what I have. One lady online described hers as “worse than natural child birth”…..I now know that pleasure, so feminists can back the fuck up. This pain has been seared in my mind…ill never forget it. In fact, Im in love with its thought, even though I never want to experience the sucker again.

Anyway Sikh’s waiting for an MRI on the 5th of May “to get diagnosed”. In Quebec, this verb means “to get rushed out”.

You would think this would give me plenty of opportunities to work on music……..I can’t sit, and I can’t stand for longer than 5 minutes…..Im laying on my back, but im not dilla. I can’t get an mpc by my side….I would love to. But, im also a student, and had to study laying on my back….

I need to get paid SOON. Missed 3 weeks of supposed work my boss keeps reassuring me of.

BUT, today was beautiful, and I feel another legendary mount real summer comming up with dope music, love, love making, and in my case, healing.